Friday, January 7, 2011

sharp turn

Alas, it seems that random musings on life with a toddler are going to take an unexpected turn for me: in November, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. and while I don't intend to make this a blog of cancer details, clearly that is going to fill a lot of my life this year. this diagnosis comes on top of my stepdaughter's recent major orthopedic surgery -- which though a lot of work now, should result in better walking for her in a few months, and Nina's just-diagnosed nut allergy...

As for me, I am overwhelmed but ok with appointments, a bit of surgery (more to come), trying to learn more about this cancer and how to deal with it (hair, nutrition, complementary care, how to ask for help, what to expect), and wanting to get our homelife in more order. A friend said that that part was like organizing your photos before you go on a trip or wanting to clean every micron of your house before Passover (i.e. "it's in your head, not to worry") -- but really, for me, I know this is a part of my entering and moving through this cancer with greater calm and beauty at home. I've been neglecting this blog, and not writing so much even when I wasn't neglecting it, but one thing I want to do this year is to reflect outwardly a bit more, have more conversation with folks in blogworld, and enrich my life in many ways.

10 comments:

Casey said...

I am really glad you are writing. We all have so much to gain from you, from your past, present and future experiences and thoughts. I find I often can't take many steps without checking in with you or wondering what you would think. (Good thing you comment on my blog to let me know!)

Much great love to you on this journey and always.

cowgirltn said...

You will be in my thoughts as you fight this horrible disease. My mom has been in remission for 3 years now and stronger then ever. You will find the strength to take this on.

tubelessstl said...

I hope and pray you are cancer free very soon. I will be walking in the
St. Louis Komen Race for the Cure in June and will be thinking good thoughts for you and will hope that by June you can be on your way or even cancer free by then! As we say in St. Louis, FIGHT LIKE A GIRL.. GRRRRRRRR.

amiracle4us said...

I am new to your blog but wanted to reach out to you and let you know I was thinking about you. If you need anything, please ask. I am an oncology nurse and know how tough this road can be. Stay strong...

jill said...

Thinking of you and sending you strength to fight the cancer. Wishing you a very quick road to cancer-free.

Brenna said...

Here via LFCA. I'll be holding you in my thoughts and prayers. Your writing is beautiful and you're obviously a person of great strength and grace; traits that will serve you well in the months and years to come. Sending lots of healing and wellness vibes in your direction.

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